i've listened to your moans and cries
now i have to turn my ear
heard all your stories too many times
all your words are only lies

you say you don't want to leave me but
your hand is holding the door
don't think your apologies make it easy
please, say nothing more

i tried to understand your reasons
but now i don't really care
you can tell your lies to someone else
because i'm no longer here

sorry could mean something if sincere
talk is cheap none the less
and this girl is through listening
'cause you're failing to impress

so take your bag of tricks and leave
close the door behind you too
i'm moving on without your baggage
i'm done, my dear, with you

Want

Sometimes we want something so badly
that we imagine in our minds we have it
with such an intensity and will
that we start to believe a lie

living inside a dream

wishing on every star
that it becomes our reality

because without it
we fade to black

Searching

Everyone has an agenda for love
Their own list of wants and needs to fulfill
We look out for them in everyone we meet
So eager to find a lasting connection that will save us
From our lonely nights sitting on the sofa alone
flipping channels in front of the television set
Listening for the phone to ring with that longed-for
voice on the other end of the line
That is connected to someone who will revive us
with a spark of hope that we are truly not alone
Our proof that we indeed do matter to someone out there

The search may lead us to a transient fix with a temporary lover
And for a while everything about them seems to complete us
Having them in our life brings new meaning to our days
And the chill of sleeping alone is happily traded for
the warmth of passionate nights in our lover’s arms
Though not necessarily perfect, we accept the comfort they bring
Taking pleasure in trading ‘I love yous’ in conversation
Because it is so much better than the absence of them
All too often, though, the reality is that we
unknowingly fool ourselves into thinking that all is perfect
Perfect that is, until…
Something changes unexpectedly
We begin to question our motives
Time changes our perspective
Perhaps a temptation is acted upon or
a slip of the tongue gives birth to doubt
The feeling refuses to last for the duration and fades away
The pedestal we raised is once again lowered and
someone has to step down
Our despair is that we realize the life we so anxiously
wanted to be real, really isn’t what we needed
Or perhaps we needed and they didn’t, leaving us powerless
to the consequences of their actions
Only this time we are left with a new decoration to our heart
a scar that must now heal itself, to renew itself
So it will be ready for the next opportunity at love

It is strangely peculiar that two people once so tightly connected
can become so alienated and disconnected
Two who once willingly and religiously served the needs of each other
can become so hardened in their hearts that they ignore them
Once warm conversation turns to bitter silence over dinner
Because there is not enough concern to ask or wonder about
what goes on in each other’s lives
Indifference becomes the virus that weakens love
and causes it to die
Leaving us with an inability to define exactly what it was
that we ever wanted from each other
As we become no longer lovers, we revert full circle,
back to being strangers
Inside we mourn the death of our once good friend, Love,
who stayed for a while and then had to leave us
A death that has emptied and drained our souls
We struggle to understand how we could have been mistaken
about something as important to us as love
And being needed by another human being,
After all our most primal need
How could we ever have thought that something
so wrong for us was so right
Again we are adrift, having lost the connection that once held us

So we continue the search, circulating, moving cautiously
How long do we search before we settle just to stay in the game
Giving up is not an option, playing is the key to winning
We want to love and we want to be loved in return
So we tirelessly search for what we need
Hoping each time we make a connection
it will be the end of the game

Two Hearts

If ever two hearts belonged together
they are yours and mine, my sweet
there is no distance or length of time
that could forbid us both to meet

For where ever it is you are, my love
there I shall also be in haste
as long we both can draw a breath
no bitter tears shall we taste

We will hold each other's hearts
in a cradle of comfort and care
nurturing every precious moment
as we grow this love we share

My heart is yours forever, love
you know that my world is you
it's the passion we drive inside us
that tells us our love is true

Love the way it should be...

You are so lovely laying here in my bed
In the dim light of patchouli scented candles
Still, quiet, having just given yourself in ecstasy to me
I can hear the beating of your heart in my ear
As I lay against your body, so warm and tranquil now
Your arms wrapped around me, pulling me to you
Shelter me from all the cares of the outside world
The touch of your lips on mine sends a tingle
Up and down my body, I am paralyzed with delight
In this bed I could lay beside you forever
If only it were possible to stay this way with you
For you are all I need to make me feel alive
We make sweet love as lovers should
With insatiable passion and fire
With total abandon, holding nothing back
Reaching for the stars with our energy
Hold me in your arms forever
Never let me go, my love
Our hearts are joined and beat as one
You make me love you so
I want to give in to you
…always

(I wrote this for you, the one who could make me feel this way, but will you ever know)

Dreams That Flew

How do you stop the burning pain
From the sting of unanswered love
Or from lost love, never meant to be
How do you numb yourself to feeling
How do I ignore the cries inside me

Have we not all loved and lost once
And why for some does the pain subside
And their hearts recover like new
When others resign to feel despair
Helplessly holding dreams that flew

They lie and say that they’re okay
So they can get out of bed each day
But in sorrow they forever long
For their love to return to them
But they suffer in solitude, alone

At night in my desperate lonely hours
Empty arms reach into the air
I kiss the vision before my eyes
Alive in dreams I left behind
Searching always 'til my heart dies

Sunday morning...

why does it hurt so much to know
that you can't see what you've done
do you remember how we loved
or am i the only one

i wish that just one day i would wake
and not have to first remember
that day you said you don't love me
and how cold i feel this September

you said you would always love me
but was it only because she hurt you
what else were you supposed to do
but move on to someone new

that was then and time has passed
and your pain has been erased
but mine is growing day by day
love's hurt is my bitter taste

you never forget the one you love
she was always there in your heart
so she returned to claim her love
for true love won't let you part

with all my heart i trusted you
I believed that love conquers all
sometimes we just can't win at love
so we forfeit and take the fall

but I'll love you, as you love her
there is nothing left to say
except i'll remember the good
and not regret a single day

ahead of me i know hope lies
should true love find me, i wait
with open arms i'll welcome it
come find me before it's too late