Stillness

There is a cold stillness in the air tonight
after all of the celebrating has ended
a new beginning, a chance to get it right
the colors of day and night are blended

Outside is dark, with shadows of light invading
distorting images visible through the glass
same questions I ask myself, answers evading
it's only a question of time, this too shall pass

Day one of 2009... a question

So, here is a hypothetical question I pose to anyone interested in reading. If your spouse of 20 years betrayed you in a very bad way, not just once but many times...how many times would you feel compelled to forgive them before you could walk away and forget them? How would you react if behind your back they started seeing their ex whom they had had a seriously failed relationship with before you, but now suddenly can't live without each other? Not like it's never happened in history before, but say you considered your relationship with this person to be high above such a breach, so the news was quite devasting. What would you do with such a betrayal of trust from the only person you ever loved? Would you cut and run never looking back...or would you forgive them and pretend everything was tolerable even though the decision to do so would change absolutely nothing, aside from stripping you of any dignity you have left...or would your love eventually turn to hatred and total disgust for this person who once meant the world to you?

Promise

Again, I open my eyes slowly
to the first ray of light shooting from the morning sun
through the opening in my window drape
and again I entreat that ray of golden promise
to empty its light into my heart
with the promise of fresh dreams
and a new heart to love
one wanting to give
one soulful and caring
one willing to see me in mine
oh peace, beautiful peace
pour yourself into my heart
see the love that needs to feel
find me and hold me once again
how I do miss your calm

Peppermint and Chocolate

The taste of your kiss flavored with peppermint and chocolate
dances wildly through my senses on this cold winter's night
while the warmth of your fingers that are touching my skin
assure me at this moment that loving you is right
for me, in my heart, there is a peaceful grace
and nothing could satisfy me any more tonight
than the honest look of love on your face

Forever Two Hearts

Two hearts that freely share
Two hearts that want intensely
Two hearts willing to forgive
Two hearts that only see the good
Two hearts that forget the pain
Two hearts that truly love

forever...
those two hearts will be together

i've listened to your moans and cries
now i have to turn my ear
heard all your stories too many times
all your words are only lies

you say you don't want to leave me but
your hand is holding the door
don't think your apologies make it easy
please, say nothing more

i tried to understand your reasons
but now i don't really care
you can tell your lies to someone else
because i'm no longer here

sorry could mean something if sincere
talk is cheap none the less
and this girl is through listening
'cause you're failing to impress

so take your bag of tricks and leave
close the door behind you too
i'm moving on without your baggage
i'm done, my dear, with you

Want

Sometimes we want something so badly
that we imagine in our minds we have it
with such an intensity and will
that we start to believe a lie

living inside a dream

wishing on every star
that it becomes our reality

because without it
we fade to black